Finding Your Identity

As I approach the one year anniversary of my graduation from rehab next month, I sit back and think about how far I have come and something that stands out the most to me, is my new found sense of identity. As time goes on, I am truly finding out who the real woman is within me, what I like and what I dislike, and my true values and beliefs. I see now how when I was consumed with my eating disorder, the joy of life that I was missing out on. I had disconnected from everyone and everything. It was just me, the gym, and my school text books. I am so much more than all of that. Life is a gift and should not be taken for granted. My eating disorder used to be my life, it was why I took my next breath, it designated what my daily schedule was and which food my hands touched. I am happy to say that now, I value my life more than ever and believe in living each day as if it's your last. I have re-established my relationships and friendships and am a stronger person than I ever was with my ED. Finding your identity is no easy task, I truly believe it just comes with time. It's been almost a year now and I'm finally starting to find myself. I also am examining who I want in my life and what things or people are a good influence on me. It's been a rough time of realization that some of the people closest to me are not the best influence. Moving away from them has helped me though to find my true identity. Out with the old, in with the new. I am looking at my life now with the glass half full and there seems to be a very bright light at the end of the tunnel ;)